I was talking to a teacher I had in high school and she recently left her cheating husband and she said “It’s made me bitter and that’s frustrating because I’m not a bitter person.” I couldn’t help but wonder, does it really make us bitter? The fact that this happened to me and all the bad there, does it make me bitter?
I don’t want to be bitter. I don’t want to have issues, but just wishing or ignoring them doesn’t make them go away. Facing them does, but I can’t help wonder if I have lost touch of who I was. Did I throw out the person I use to be just because I started going to counceling? Do I even remember the person I want to be? Is it possible to get over things major things, and still remain true to who you are? Or does it get lost in the tears, the pain, the sleepless nights. I know there is somethings I’ve let go, I know I’ve lost some patience with the world because I have to give myself so much, I know I’ve lost some trust over the years, but how much do I have to give up? Do I ever give it up?
I think I need to make a list of who I want to be, and just how I have remain that person.
Does what he did to me define me? Does it change me, Break me, or Make me?