I know it doesn’t seem like much, but I’ve never been on a date. I’ve never had someone pick me up after I get all dolled up. I’ve never had someone else pay for my ticket to a movie, or take me to dinner and pay with the intention to impress. I know it seems small, but I missed out.
Let me tell you what I did have. I had a boy who didn’t have a car, didn’t have a job, and in no way was willing to work for his parents. So not only did I have to pay for my own movie ticket at times he was bumming money off of anyone to try and watch the movie himself. The only place I ever ate with him is McDonald’s, and I don’t eat fast food. Therefore a lot of our dates were his couch, and well there’s a lot of nightmares in that couch.
I just want someone to take care of me for once. I want to be picked up and told I’m beautiful. I want to not think about the money I brought just in-case he didn’t pay. I wanted to find a comfort spot in his arms, instead of walking a few feet behind him. I want to watch a movie with someone who loves me next to me, not someone who is looking at how to get in my pants. I guess there’s some more time to wait and eventually someone is going to come and show me love and kindness all I can wonder is…
How much longer till eventually..?